2014 year in review

January

Honestly I don’t remember anything from the first month of the year, except I had a horrible run at 3M.  It was Shiner all over again.  I could not breathe for anything.  I finished and was SO glad to be done.  And I spent some time with ODB which was SO nice.

February

February was crazy.  More than 1 ice storm.  Bought a house by myself, on my birthday. Ran Austin for the first time ever and I felt fine, but my time was disappointing.  My godson turned 1.  I had an admirer hot on my tail and I was not thrilled about that.  Went to see ODB.

March

Another crazy ice storm.  ODB came to my house for the first time and I LOVED every second of it.  He helped me do so many things!  SXSW, I went to see Jimmy Kimmel, met Adam Carolla, and went to Rachel Ray’s party.  Less time and less music but still a fun year. Big work trip.

April

Another work trip, got to see ODB.  San Francisco for LUNA.  Fried my iphone and had to get another.

May

To be honest, I don’t remember anything except missing the Drive By Truckers concert.

June-July

The most  days I think I’ve ever had with ODB in one month!  Vacations, 2 trips here to see me, one there to see him.  Our first vacation together and we didn’t kill each other (and it was amazing).  Saw my college roomie.  Big work function.  Took some added duties at work.

August

Other than Dessert Dash, drawing a blank with August.  I do know it was HOT.

September

Sister’s bday.  It’s the beginning of the year at work, I don’t remember much.  Ran relay and I did pretty horrible.

October

Several work trips.  Several ODB trips. Several really good runs.

November

Another work trip.  BIG speedbump for ODB and I.  Made it through and I love him even more after all of it.  Several ODB trips.

December

LOTS of ODB (not enough).  LOTS of work.  Christmas with family.  Time with my BFF and godson.  An extended drive down 290 (smirk).   And I closed the door on someone who no longer deserves to be part of my life.

In 2015 I look forward to the story that will be written.  It is my hope that my love for ODB continues to grow, I get to see my godson more, and I spend less time worrying about work and more time enjoying life.  CHEERS!

Fun Facts Friday

  • I worked out every day last week.  I worked out 1 day this week so far.  I pushed myself too hard Saturday without enough prep and I severely dehydrated myself.   Lesson learned.  I went to bed super early last night.
  • I am getting ready to travel a lot. I love being in my element and I wish it was 12 months out of the year and not just 2ish.
  • I am probably going to work my Christmas job again.  It ain’t in it for the money, that’s for sure.
  • I am watching Nashville right now, which I am glad is back on.  Sometimes I see some of my own life in the show.  Same with Modern Family. I don’t watch much tv but I do know my life is nothing like Sons of Anarchy, thank goodness!
  • I want to start doing some updating on my house, I have no idea where to start, but I do know exterior painting is high priority and i’m not doing it myself.  Of course the prices i’ve gotten so far aren’t pretty.
  • I finally finished decorating my bedroom.  Dad helped me hang my big art last weekend when he was here.
  • LUNA team got extended an extra year 🙂
  • speaking of bedrooms I decided to get a roommate.  EEEK!  I have never lived with just one other girl who wasn’t my sister.  My 1st year away at school I had 3 girl roomies.  I hope it all goes well.
  •  I woke up in a sweaty panic last night, which is never a good feeling.  I’ve been very upset about some stuff lately.
  • I have a trip at the end of October that I am really looking forward to.  Hoping I am not going alone.  Even if I do, it’ll be still be great, but it just won’t be the same.
  • I miss artists like Peter Dawson, Dub Miller, and Cross Canadian Ragweed (currently listening to Peter Dawson-Coupland Live.  Elisabeth’s song is one of my favorites of his, it’s makes me happy).
  • Elisabeth’s song reminds me of ODB.

Have a fantastic weekend!

Ay Ay Ay!

The last week has been a blur.

Friday-helped mom finish sister’s birthday shopping.  Cooked parents dinner at sister’s house.  Made her GF magic bar cupcakes.

Saturday-relay race.  I got severely dehydrated and ran pretty dang slow.  Then stupid me didn’t drink up until 2 pm.  Went out for sister’s birthday.

Sunday-my shoulders were so sore I couldn’t move, guessing it was from my dehydration.  I went to the gym but couldn’t do much of anything.

Monday-Wednesday-blur.  Work was super busy.  I tried to run Tuesday but only had time for 2 miles, which was brutal.  Started getting in a funk this morning and I can see it lasting for the next week.  I keep fighting it, but can’t shake it.  My heart is hurting pretty badly right now.  I know how to make it better, but I don’t see that happening.  That hurts even more. I want to magically fix everything and to live happily (most of the time) ever after.  I want my fairy tale damn it!

Never heard back from Dr. L, which makes me sad.  I have no idea what to do now.  I can’t wait 2 more months to see him and keep buying stuff that may not be helping me.  May be trying my mom’s Dr. in SA soon.

I am probably not renewing my domain in a few weeks, so it may be back to https://melissadishes.wordpress.com.  Will keep you posted.

Back at it

This week I seem to have finally gotten back in my groove.  Routine is finally coming back to me.  I am balancing everything just fine.  

Well except the fact that today was an optional holiday and I worked 5 hours.  I should have worked 0 hours.  I haven’t had a day off I didn’t get from working extra hours since Florida in early July.  That seems like YEARS ago.  I was told today I was a work-a-holic.  I don’t think that’s it.  It’s my personality and ethic.  I’ve probably been putting more effort into a few things than I should. I have a really bad habit of working really hard on things that are past help.

Speaking of things that are past help, I’ve been struggling with a few decisions I made to be the bigger person.  I hate conflict and pain for anyone, including myself.  I see now that my trying to avoid certain things has screwed me over once again. There is regret.  I hate regret.  I can’t change the past, but I would do it differently if I could do it over.

Another thing I need to work on is getting my running back post hip issues.  I have a relay race in a little over a week and I am no where close to being ready.  I did place in two races in June, but a lot has happened since then.  My relay team is competitive.  I wasn’t ready last year, because of obvious stress and life reasons last year (race was earlier in years past), but i still pulled out a fast time.  The year before I had a “road kill” on a girl who was on my high school’s state track team, which was super exciting for me.  I don’t want to be the slowest one but then again, 9 days is too late to really do anything beneficial other than just running.  

Around the corner, I am planning to make a trip to see some of my friends I haven’t seen much in the last year.  I have regret that I haven’t seen them enough.  I do have a LOT of work trips in October, November, and June.  I really plan on making the most out of those and maybe adding some extra fun days on to them.  I am blessed to have such good friends.  I need to find more time for them.   

I had a good day

Today is the best I’ve felt in forever.  Yesterday wasn’t shabby, but today was pretty dang good.  Did I mention that I wasn’t holding on to a ton of water either day?  Yeah, that was a super huge plus!

I did about half my usual weights at the gym today, followed by a short swim.  I made huge progress with the swimming, not being winded and doing more freestyle.  Success!  I was short on time because of my clinic today, so I was trying to just fit everything in.

On to the venue to set up for our aqua jogging clinic.  I wasn’t able to get into the water last year.  This year I almost didn’t make it because there wasn’t enough noodles and belts to go around (which reminds me all the noodles I bought last year are at my old house).  We had a great turnout!  No including our coaches, we had 17 gals and 1 guy.  Fish really put us through the wringer with a 32 minute workout.  At the end she gave the option to go without flotation.     You better believe I tossed my noodle.  It was HARD but good.  I need to find a pool deep enough to do it in and be able to keep correct form.  Today was a good reminder that it’s good cross training and not just for injuries.  Plus you can do speed, intervals, and drills with it.

Afterward everyone went their own way.  I went to lunch with one of my friends at WF.  We were joined by 2 more friends later on.  My boss had given me a $15 gift card there for covering her vacation.  You better believe that whole dang thing went toward a salad.  I even got the smallest container they have and I still made a $18 salad.   Worth every penny because it’s 100% stuff I LOVE.  

Now on to prep for the week and chores.  It was a good weekend.  There are a few things that would have made it better, like seeing Radney Foster, and more of my favorite people!

Getting back on the rails

It was a rough week for me.   Stress has increased.   Stress is bad bad bad for me.  Work, extracurriculars, personal life all had a few hiccups.

There was a point last week when the stress got to be so bad, someone confirmed my stress bloat.  He said I looked at least 6 months pregnant.  This lasted for almost 3 days.   The stress bloat has since gone away, thank goodness.    Don’t worry, that someone is ODB, and I am glad that he can be honest with me like that.  I wish he was here all of the time, I think I would handle stress a lot different.  He grounds me.

I had to send the foster kittens home today.  I told their rescuer that I would keep them another week to give her a break, but it was beginning to really stress out my 2 cats.  So much so, they quit eating.   All signs of kittens are now erased, hopefully my girls will be happy now.

Today was the first time I’ve menu planned in writing in months.  I can’t remember the last time I did.  Lately I’ve just been grabbing random healthy foods and just combining them as needed.  It works, but it’s not my norm.  I did make a recipe for last week’s lunches, which was great, but I was off track on dinner.  Not health wise, just organizationally.

So I’m hoping this week will be better in all areas.  Breakfasts and lunches are made and packed as always.  Boss is on vacation, so work stress will probably be elevated, I just need to make sure I have a good handle on it.

I am back to AutoImmune Paleo tomorrow.  I need to tough it out strictly for at least 30 days.  AIP makes Dr. L’s protocol easier too.   One of my Austin gals was told to do Whole 30 by her Dr., so I told her I would be her accountability buddy!  AIP is more strict, but the accountability is what I need.  I know it makes me feel better.  Stacy Toth from Paleo Parents posted last week that she healed her stomach so much, she was able to successfully reintroduce dairy!   That’s not a near future goal of mine, but long term that could be good!

Looking forward to starting my week off right 🙂

Dr says

So I saw my new Dr. on Tuesday afternoon.  It was a long 3 month wait for an appt with him.

A friend asked how it went.  I said “well I didn’t cry on the way home.”  Not even joking on that, i’ve cried after every single Dr. appt in the last 4 years.  A few of them during the appt.  It actually went very well.  He doesn’t do medications (he’s a PHD), just supplements. Any medication I need, like natural desiccated thyroid (NDT) will come from my PCP.

He was straightforward and blunt.  In a caring way.  Told me he treat all of his patients like they are family.  Came in with a handshake and left with a hug.

He talked to me as an athlete and a sister.  Something I haven’t considered myself being for several years.

So there are supplements.  Bust out the “old man” pill box again.  He was appalled at the hormones I had been on, so I am not going back there. Staying on the LDN and NDT now.  Trying what he gave me for 12 weeks.

And then the dietary part.  This is the part I am not wild about.  Mostly because of what it is.  I will do it, because I am more than willing to change what I eat to try to make myself better.  It’s all I’ve done for the last 4 years.  He wants me to do low glycemic/South Beach 1, 2.   BLECH on a diet that is a diet.  And BLECH on lowering carbs.  I like carbs.  I like being healthy and feeling good more.