It’s moments like these…

Sometimes we laugh, and sometimes we cry
Some days it’s hard to figure out our way in this life
But it’s moments like these that make me wish
I could freeze frame time.~Brandon Rhyder

Today was truly one of those days I wanted to put in slow motion.  Sometimes the company makes everything enjoyable.  Sometimes doing nothing with the right person means EVERYTHING.  I definitely laughed today and smiled my ass off.  Tears fell when it was time to go.

It never gets easier.  But I hope one day “we figure out our way in this life”, and it leads us to being permanently together.

Boys!

I am not a therapist or a relationship expert, but I’m gonna vent a little on the men…ok, boys that I’ve been around lately that seem to be drawn to me.  I don’t remember having these issues ever before.

Type #1-the party boy.  Anyone who knows me knows this is not my type.  Yes, I like to go out, but rarely do I drink or stay out all night long.

Type #2-the couch potato.  I am not a fitness freak, but I can’t stand when someone does NOTHING.  Active guys are totally hot.  My first boyfriend played basketball, baseball, and ran track.

Type #3-the fling.  Sorry dudes, I am very conservative and that ain’t my thing.

Type #4-the opposite.  Sorry, but if you are completely opposite of me in every form and fashion, it’s not going to work.

Type #5-the financial dummy.  If you can’t manage your money, you won’t be able to manage handling me.

Type #6-the scumbag.  Sorry guys, I have high standards.

Type #7-self centered.  I like when you like you, but you need to not always focus on yourself.

Type #8-the kind that won’t take a hint.  If I say I have a boyfriend, please leave me alone.

And then there are those who are more than 1 of the above.  Those are the ones that love me.   Because i’m a nice person, I won’t explain my example there.  If you know me well enough, you know more than you probably care to 😉

Things I like Thursday

  • Life is short, too short.  Hug your loved ones.
  • It’s amazing how much you can care about people you’ve never met.
  • Sometimes driving 8 hours in a 24 hour period is the best thing to do and TOTALLY worth it.
  • Hugs make everything better.  I needed one and I got many.
  • Thursday morning brunches at Denny’s are perfect.
  • I missed laughing and smiling so much.
  • I’ve really learned to appreciate every moment spent with ones I love.
  • I feel like my heart got a booster shot of love today 🙂

Back in business

I turned off my blog a few months ago.  ODB suggested I bring it back.

So I went and looked back at the last blog I did.  Wow how things have changed!

October was a great month for me at work.  Promotion, lots of travel, seeing ODB.  And then things turned.  Damn it, I am crying trying to even type right now.  We made it through, but it wasn’t easy.  I am not sure I was as strong as I should have been.  Looking back I really think some of my reactions weren’t the best, but they were honest.

So I’m back to blogging.  About what, I don’t know.  I don’t follow weight watchers anymore and haven’t in a couple of years.  I do still cook.  I do still have thyroid issues.  I still run (sorta).  And i’m still madly in love with ODB 🙂  So topics TBA!

Monday marvels

I honestly have no idea where my weekend went.  I did some cleaning, some working out, watched 2 horrible movies (note to self, consult Rotten Tomatoes website first).  Oh and I worked, because with traveling comes getting backlogged.  You can only do so much from the road.

Apparently PB Snickers hate me.  I’ve never had one before, we got 300 bars last week for an event.  I ate half yesterday and half today.  BLEH.  The way I feel was NOT worth the heavenly goodness.  Read the ingredients and I don’t know what it could be.  Yes, I know they are made of garbage.

I miss my ODB.  Way too much.

Things I like Thursday: Understanding

Today’s things I like Thursday is about understanding…

  • Being criticized by a certain group.  Someone completely understanding why you are upset because they know the criticism even worse.
  • Realizing complaining about above said criticism is silly, especially when the other person deals with it daily.
  • Having someone be able to ground you.  Just by listening.  Even if they can’t relate to your problem.
  • Hearing a story that happened a long time ago that had a huge impact on someone as a teen.  Silently fighting back the tears because you are thinking about how they felt in that situation.  Wondering how you would have reacted in a similar situation.
  • Someone trusting you with something they’ve never told anyone.  Something that caused them pain and disconnected them from someone.  Them knowing that you may not relate, but can understand.
  • Someone understanding how much something means to you.  Even if it doesn’t seem attainable.  Wanting to be part of something you’ve heard such wonderful things about.
  • Understanding that everything happens for a reason, even if the reason isn’t clear.

Fun Facts Friday

  • I worked out every day last week.  I worked out 1 day this week so far.  I pushed myself too hard Saturday without enough prep and I severely dehydrated myself.   Lesson learned.  I went to bed super early last night.
  • I am getting ready to travel a lot. I love being in my element and I wish it was 12 months out of the year and not just 2ish.
  • I am probably going to work my Christmas job again.  It ain’t in it for the money, that’s for sure.
  • I am watching Nashville right now, which I am glad is back on.  Sometimes I see some of my own life in the show.  Same with Modern Family. I don’t watch much tv but I do know my life is nothing like Sons of Anarchy, thank goodness!
  • I want to start doing some updating on my house, I have no idea where to start, but I do know exterior painting is high priority and i’m not doing it myself.  Of course the prices i’ve gotten so far aren’t pretty.
  • I finally finished decorating my bedroom.  Dad helped me hang my big art last weekend when he was here.
  • LUNA team got extended an extra year 🙂
  • speaking of bedrooms I decided to get a roommate.  EEEK!  I have never lived with just one other girl who wasn’t my sister.  My 1st year away at school I had 3 girl roomies.  I hope it all goes well.
  •  I woke up in a sweaty panic last night, which is never a good feeling.  I’ve been very upset about some stuff lately.
  • I have a trip at the end of October that I am really looking forward to.  Hoping I am not going alone.  Even if I do, it’ll be still be great, but it just won’t be the same.
  • I miss artists like Peter Dawson, Dub Miller, and Cross Canadian Ragweed (currently listening to Peter Dawson-Coupland Live.  Elisabeth’s song is one of my favorites of his, it’s makes me happy).
  • Elisabeth’s song reminds me of ODB.

Have a fantastic weekend!

Ay Ay Ay!

The last week has been a blur.

Friday-helped mom finish sister’s birthday shopping.  Cooked parents dinner at sister’s house.  Made her GF magic bar cupcakes.

Saturday-relay race.  I got severely dehydrated and ran pretty dang slow.  Then stupid me didn’t drink up until 2 pm.  Went out for sister’s birthday.

Sunday-my shoulders were so sore I couldn’t move, guessing it was from my dehydration.  I went to the gym but couldn’t do much of anything.

Monday-Wednesday-blur.  Work was super busy.  I tried to run Tuesday but only had time for 2 miles, which was brutal.  Started getting in a funk this morning and I can see it lasting for the next week.  I keep fighting it, but can’t shake it.  My heart is hurting pretty badly right now.  I know how to make it better, but I don’t see that happening.  That hurts even more. I want to magically fix everything and to live happily (most of the time) ever after.  I want my fairy tale damn it!

Never heard back from Dr. L, which makes me sad.  I have no idea what to do now.  I can’t wait 2 more months to see him and keep buying stuff that may not be helping me.  May be trying my mom’s Dr. in SA soon.

I am probably not renewing my domain in a few weeks, so it may be back to https://melissadishes.wordpress.com.  Will keep you posted.