Ay Ay Ay!

The last week has been a blur.

Friday-helped mom finish sister’s birthday shopping.  Cooked parents dinner at sister’s house.  Made her GF magic bar cupcakes.

Saturday-relay race.  I got severely dehydrated and ran pretty dang slow.  Then stupid me didn’t drink up until 2 pm.  Went out for sister’s birthday.

Sunday-my shoulders were so sore I couldn’t move, guessing it was from my dehydration.  I went to the gym but couldn’t do much of anything.

Monday-Wednesday-blur.  Work was super busy.  I tried to run Tuesday but only had time for 2 miles, which was brutal.  Started getting in a funk this morning and I can see it lasting for the next week.  I keep fighting it, but can’t shake it.  My heart is hurting pretty badly right now.  I know how to make it better, but I don’t see that happening.  That hurts even more. I want to magically fix everything and to live happily (most of the time) ever after.  I want my fairy tale damn it!

Never heard back from Dr. L, which makes me sad.  I have no idea what to do now.  I can’t wait 2 more months to see him and keep buying stuff that may not be helping me.  May be trying my mom’s Dr. in SA soon.

I am probably not renewing my domain in a few weeks, so it may be back to https://melissadishes.wordpress.com.  Will keep you posted.

Saturday smiles

I headed home Friday later than planned.  Wasn’t feeling the greatest, but I had a hair appt and family commitments on Saturday.  I missed my race Friday night which was a bummer, but one of my friends was able to sub my spot in our relay.

Didn’t sleep well at home, which is nothing new.  I usually sleep crummy when I go home.  Started feeling better mid-morning, despite the heat and humidity.  Mom and I took some special event historic tours in my hometown, which was really cool.  

Went to see my godson after lunch.  It had been a month since I had seen him last, which was way too long.  We had fun watching Cookie Monster, playing basketball, and being silly.

It was only about 24 hours but it was time well spent.

Back at my house now, drove through tons of rain to get here.  NOTHING North of Austin.  Bummer.

Tomorrow you will find me prepping for the week, cleaning, and praying for rain!

Doozy of a week

I knew leading into last week was going to be rough.  My boss was going to be out of town for a week and a half and I was in charge, in addition to the 1001 things I had to do.

Sunday-my cats weren’t having any part of the foster kittens anymore.  This included food protests. I returned the kittens to their foster mommy, who was expecting them back already anyhow.  I really wanted to give her another week of a break, but my kitties needed a break from the babies.

Monday-I honestly don’t remember much of Monday, except for having to deal with a very sensitive issue outside of work.  I tried to handle it the best I could.  It had been causing me stress for months, especially in the last month.  It wasn’t easy or pleasant and I hated that I had to do it.

Tuesday-Was a LONG day. Text from dad that mom’s Dr appt turned into a go to the hospital appt, to lets do an EKG, to she’s admitted.  WHAT?!?!  Yes, they kept her because they wanted an angiogram Wednesday afternoon.

I had to take care of LUNA that night and a meeting, which was only made easier because ODB is super smart and was able to walk me through what everything meant and exactly what mom was going to have happen.  Only thing that would have made me feel even better was him here to console me.

Wednesday- Worked a very hectic half day.  Sister and I jumped in the car, made a pit stop at Buccee’s to pick up some cheer-me-ups for mom, and made our way.  We didn’t tell her we were coming.  Surprise!  We got there about 1.5 hours before they took her away.  She was back pretty quickly.  They didn’t put any stints in.  She has to be on a few medications through to try to handle everything. She had to lie down for 3 hours after her procedure.  We went to ate and brought her food back.  Dad and sister thought mexican food was a good idea.  Dr said she could eat whatever she wanted, and my family obeyed that.  Enchiladas, rice and beans, isn’t exactly my idea of heart patient food.  

She had to stay overnight.  Sister and I went home.

Thursday-I was working on almost no sleep now.  I hadn’t been sleeping anyhow before the mom thing and that just piled on top of all of the other stress.  Hectic day at work and then had to take Chanel to the vet.  She still wasn’t eating well and she was bony.  I feared the worst.  All week I had been crying at night over it.  I even researched pet crematoriums because I was certain she was dying.  On the way home from work to get her, I had an absolute meltdown on the freeway, sobbing over my poor little kitty.  I was also upset that ODB wasn’t here to help me deal with whatever I was going to be told.

Thank God she’s ok.  Vet said it was probably still stress from the kittens, but she had a tiny little kidney elevation.  I needed to make her drink more water and eat low protein food.  Apparently her love of freshly cooked meat and me trying to make her gain weight in the last year was NOT a good idea.  So I was sent home with a very tiny bag of catfood which wasn’t cheap.  Whatever it takes to make her better.

Friday-Another long day at work, but at least I did get away at lunch for a swim.  I am fairly disappointed with my swimming skills and I know if ODB was around more, I would be able to practice with an expert coach more often.  ODB finally told me after my swim that I needed to chill the hell out and give myself a break.  He pointed out everything I had been through during the week and why I needed to cut myself some slack.  He’s a smart one I tell you!

After work, sister and I headed home for mom’s birthday.  I had planned on celebrating with her next weekend, but with everything that happened last week, she needed the cheer up.

Weekend-Greenfest was this weekend and I didn’t expect to feel the emotions I did.  I quit enjoying the Saturday night GF party years ago.  I never was much into partying until you pass out.  I did miss the day time stuff.   I did miss the company.  And the river.  And seeing people.  But the other half of me worried about how I would be treated if I showed up, because while I didn’t do anything wrong, I am an ex.  Exes always get the bad rap.  Even though we were both single when we first started going to GW and GF parties, I am sure things really wouldn’t be the same.  That’s ok.  That is another phase in my life that has passed.  All of  that didn’t really matter anyhow, because I was not in my own car, and at the mercy of my sister.

Speaking of phases, I made the comment on Saturday, I feel like I am stuck between my former life and the one that I want.  I don’t much like being stuck.

I am looking forward to this week being a little kinder to my heart and my mind. 

Law of the Garbage Truck

Got this story in an email from my dad and thought it was fitting for this morning…..

LAW OF THE GARBAGE TRUCK

One day I hopped in a taxi and we took off for the airport
We were driving in the right lane when suddenly a black
car jumped out of a parking space right in front of us.
My taxi driver slammed on his brakes, skidded, and missed
the other car by just inches! The driver of the other car
whipped his head around and started yelling at us.
My taxi driver just smiled and waved at the guy.
And I mean, he was really friendly.
So I asked, ‘Why did you just do that? This guy almost
ruined your car and sent us to the hospital!’
This is when my taxi driver taught me what I now call,
‘The Law of the Garbage Truck.’He explained that many people are like garbage trucks.
They run around full of garbage, full of frustration, full of
anger, and full of disappointment.
As their garbage piles up, they need a place to dump it
and sometimes they’ll dump it on you..
Don’t take it personally.Just smile, wave, wish them well, and move on. Don’t take
their garbage and spread it to other people at work, at home,
or on the streets.
The bottom line is that successful people do not let garbage
trucks take over their day.
Life’s too short to wake up in the morning with regrets,
so ….. Love the people who treat you right.
Pray for the ones who don’t.

Hot date!

I have a hot date on Saturday night and I am SO excited!

It’s my first time alone with the guy.   I can’t spend enough time with him.   He’s sweet, handsome, and great company 🙂  Who could ask for more?

Will keep everyone posted on how it goes!

2013: Year in Review

I honestly don’t remember a whole lot from 2013, especially the first half.  To be honest, looking back, 2013 was just ok overall.  Majority of the year was stressful workwise, especially until September.

January

I don’t remember much except that I was supposed to run Disney and I couldn’t.  3 month running hiatus due to adrenal issues.

Hosted godson’s baby shower.  Sorority chapter at Texas State activated.  Poured myself into yoga.

I do remember legislative session was in full swing.  I was working A LOT.

February

More legislative session, not running, and tired.

Our secretary at work died 😦

8 year anniversary with Dan.

My godson was born!!!

Had surgery at the end of February.

Got a stand up desk (YAY!)

March

More legislative session.  Stress.  Recovering from surgery.  SXSW.

Couldn’t defend my Thin Mint Sprint title 😦  Volunteered instead.

I started run-walking at the end of March.  It SUCKED.  I couldn’t control my breathing.

April

More legislative session.  Stress.  No rain.  More work stress.

San Francisco for LUNA Summit with all but 1 of my teammates.  Great time!  Started run-walking more.

May

More legislative session.  Stress.  No rain.  More work stress.  Traveled a little for work.  Dan’s parents came for a visit.

June

Legislative session over!  Still no rain.

Changed doctors.

I became a Godmother.

Jalapeno Half in Fort Worth.  The only summer race I’ve ever done, may be my last!  Great weekend with mom and sister.

Turning point with work role.  New assignment.  Still no rain.

July

Working my old duties AND new duties at work.  Still no rain.  In fact, it got worse.

Work trip with visits with some of favorites.

Vacation booked to Hawaii.

Stopped doing yoga much at all.

Finally got some overdue appreciation during a big work event.

Had a big weight gain out of no where (big for a short amt of time and my frame).  I didn’t change my food or exercise.  Frustrated.

August

This was the turning point of the year.

Went to see Jason Boland and Pat Green in New Braunfels and had a wonderful time with a bunch of old friends.  It was very reminiscent of the old days.

I separated from Dan.  Hardest thing i’ve ever had to say/do.  He agreed it was right.

Hawaiian vacation cancelled.

September 

September was the longest month of my life.  Trying to get the last 8.5 years of my life sorted out.

I decided to live in our house until October.  After October 1, we would go our separate ways.   Except my way was me leaving my house.  My home.  Moved in with my sister.  He kept our house.

I only told my family and closest friends about the split.  That’s what he and I agreed to.

Spent a week in Houston to “find myself.”  Friends, family, sports, food.  To sum it up, it was a “game changer.”

Dove into my new work role 100% and made the decision to stop letting others dump on me.

October 

Started over.  No home.  No money.

Overwhelming support from my family, friends, and coworkers.

Traveled a lot.  2 work trips and a trip to San Francisco for the Nike Women’s half.  Great memories made.  Love SF.

Started getting back to many things I used to do pre-Dan.  Things I put aside because he didn’t like them or I no longer had time.

Once word started to get out that I was single, it spread like wildfire.  All of a sudden I had texts and messages from people who wanted to date me.  This was very foreign and unexpected.  Actually, uncomfortable.

November 

A little more work travel.

Not feeling great running.  No energy.  Not having an easy time lugging extra weight either.  Shiner Half was perfect weather for me, but the race for me was anything but.

I started missing my old house.  My stuff.  Being hostess for Thanksgiving.

Got my first Christmas job.  It was a great idea.  Not much money, but good people and warm hearts.

December

By far the best month of the year to me.  Despite missing my old house again.  My fireplace.  My Christmas tree.

I had another great month at work.  Got a raise.  Got lots of kudos.

I learned patience. Or the closest I will ever get to it.

I learned the true meaning of love.  Watching my godson open his Christmas gift.  Spending a weekend in yoga pants and an over-sized sweatshirt.  Carefully selected groceries.  Listening to others.

Cut back the running to almost nothing.

Waiting on salivary cortisol test to come in.  Fingers crossed my adrenals are fine.

~~I am almost 20 lbs heavier than I started the year.  I don’t have my own place.  Another whole year of frustrating visits to the doctors with no answers.

Even with those things hanging over my head, this year was ok.  I know 2014 is going to be a big year for me.  Big for my career, big for my health, and big for my relationships.   I will love more and work less.  This year I will NOT let vacation time roll!!!

I am going to make a new home for myself.  Spend more time with my godson.  Spend more time with family and friends.  Spend more time on me.

Fun Facts Friday: Black Friday Edition

Feels like a Sunday to me.  I am SO glad it’s only Friday.  2 more days until Monday.  What WILL I do with myself?

Ok, I know what I would like to do, but unfortunately time, distance, and other barriers prohibit that from happening.

Black Friday Edition of Fun Facts Friday:

  • My mom, sister, and I always go shopping on Thanksgiving night.  Even in high school when Garden Ridge Pottery was the only thing open.
  • Last night my mom and I went to Kohl’s and I bought my godson and myself a few things.
  • I bought my godson’s birthday gift yesterday on Amazon.  I couldn’t wait to order it.  His birthday is the same week as mine.  My little groundhog 😉
  • I have not bought Evan a Christmas gift.  Backwards, I know.
  • I have a holiday job for the first time ever (well other than when I worked retail in college).  I did not have to work black Friday.
  • I did a turkey trot with mom and a bunch of my running buddies yesterday.  Apparently I stepped in dog poop before we started and had a huge pile of it on my shoe for all 4 miles.
  • I woke up by alarm today because I wanted to go to the gym early.  And I stayed up too late last night. Waking was not easy.
  • I had to cut my workout short for good reason.  I came in the gym and left the gym in 2 different workout outfits.  I took a shower between outfits.
  • I had breakfast out this morning.  With good company.  Great company.  The best company.
  • I did a little shopping today with my mom after I got done with breakfast.  I have no shame shopping in gym shorts.
  • I watched the first whole college football game this season.  LSU vs Arkansas.  I was not happy with the ending there.
  • Ever since I got home this afternoon i’ve done nothing but veg.  Read articles, watch football, lay around.  I forgot what that’s like.  It was kind of nice.  Of course, certain things would have improved the happiness factor.
  • I vocalized one of my blessings again this morning and I may have cried.  I only cried because it’s that important.

Race Review: Shiner Half Marathon

Last year’s recap

Expo/Packet Pickup:  Good thing mom lives near San Antonio.  All of the pickups, other than until 5 pm on Friday and race day were in San Antonio.  Luckily mom picked up for herself, sister, and myself.

The shirt is cute.  Brooks tech tee in neon yellow with the Shiner Beer ram on it.

Beneficiary for the race is the Boot Campaign, which is a Texas based charity.  Check it out here!

Pre-race:  Seemed well organized.  Plenty of porta-potties.  The start is kind of narrow though.  Wish they would start the 5K before or after the start of the half and not at the same time.

Shot of MOST of our LUNA group.  I didn’t get the big group shot with the guys on my phone.  In fact, I am not sure who did!

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Course:  Still not my favorite course just because it’s not scenic at all.  Doesn’t help that now Eagle Ford shale drilling is everywhere there, providing for less nice scenery.  The spirit of the community and the participants is my favorite part of this race.  All of the race volunteers are locals.   Small town, simple, community loving locals.  The kind of thing that makes your heart smile.

Refreshment:  Water, Gatorade, and gels on the course.

After the race they had probably 5 different kinds of Shiner beer and some great looking German food (brats, kraut, potato salad), plus bananas and water.  I stuck to bananas and water.  Sister had sauerkraut for the first time ever and she loved it.  Still laughing at the fact that she didn’t know what it actually was.   Mom and sister said the food was really good.

Post Race:  The live band was really good, or at least I thought they were.  Awards were beer steins again.  My friend Megan won her age group, YAY!

Here is a shot of the medal.  It’s very unique.  Plus the back is a beer bottle opener!IMG_2755[1]

This year I actually got to buy stuff at the brewery gift shop after the race, before the masses hit it up.  Someone is going to be spoiled with the goodies I found!

Overall it was another good race.  The issues I  had this year were ALL me (minus the weather).  This year was SO cold and windy.  Luckily not wet.  I started in capris (which I never wear), a tank, arm warmers, and a throwaway shirt with gloves.  I tossed the gloves at mile 2, the shirt I tied around my waist just in case I needed it later.  Arm warmers came off at mile 3, back on at 6 for maybe 5 minutes.  I had my temperature perfectly mile 7.  Tank top and capris only.  Someone told me the windchill was in the high 20’s.  I felt fine while I was moving in what I had left on.

I struggled the whole time mentally and physically.  At one point I wanted to DNF which i’ve never done.  I kept having my eyes lose focus which freaked me out (think it was severe allergies) and I had to walk at least 4 times.  Then my stomach bothered me.  Seriously?  I’ve never had issues with either during a race.

There wasn’t as much fun and socializing this year as last, because of the weather.  It was still cold and blustery.  My mom finished about 1.5 hours after I did, which meant I was standing still in the cold for a good while.  Between the three of us girls, none of us were happy with our actual times, but it wasn’t a worst either.

It was a hard pill for me to swallow.  I ran a 1:47 last year with ease, pretty much untrained in very humid and warm weather.  This year I was 10 minutes slower.  I am also 15 lbs heaver and not myself.  I love racing but I haven’t loved myself in the last 2 races.  Probably a sign I need to back off and take a break.

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Race Report: Nike Women’s Marathon and Half Marathon

Race Report: Nike Women’s Race

Expo:  The expo hype was huge.  Luckily we got there Friday morning right after it opened and beat the crowds.  No lines to get our packets.IMG_2243[1]  The expo itself was nice, but Nike, Nuun, Paul Mitchell, LUNA, and Neutrogena were the only booths.IMG_2246[1]

Pre-race:  Seemed well organized.  Plenty of porta-potties.  Bag drop was easy, lining up was easy.  There was only 5 corrals though, for 32,000 people.

Course:  The start was crowded which was frustrating.  I was in the first corral behind the elites, but they let the first 3 go all at the same time.  This did not bode well for the first couple of miles.   The fog was so heavy that  couldn’t see anything.  Not to mention it made for a very humid and wet race.  The course was challenging to say the least.  Nothing that I couldn’t handle, but it was tough, some of the hills were pretty bad.

It wasn’t my best but it wasn’t my worst.  Definitely the hardest course I’ve ever run and the weather didn’t help.  I was proud of myself for what I accomplished and I truly had nothing left when I was done.

Refreshment:  On course-Clif shot blocks, water, and Nuun.  I know I took some Nuun but it was so watered down, I couldn’t taste it.

Post Race:   You get a Tiffany’s finisher necklace instead of a medal.  Half and Full get the same one.  From a San Francisco fireman in a tux. IMG_2341[1] This year was the 10 year anniversary.  The necklace was good, but not as cute as I hoped.  I wore it all last week though.IMG_2324[1]

Whole Foods sponsored the finisher food.  LUNA protein bar, banana, reusable bottle of water, fruit cup.

If you went to the finisher village and waited in long lines, you could get goodies from the Whole Foods tent (only GF item was Popchips).   Also a long line, but worth the wait were massages and full size Neutrogena products!

Overall the race was cool, but I am not sure I will do it again.  The crowds at the start were insane and that’s one of my pet peeves.  The crowds weren’t too bad when I finished, but by time my mom finished, the lines to jut get your food and get out of the finisher area were insane!  An hour just to get her out of the finisher area, then another hour plus to wait in the shuttle line to get back to Union Square.