This week I seem to have finally gotten back in my groove. Routine is finally coming back to me. I am balancing everything just fine.
Well except the fact that today was an optional holiday and I worked 5 hours. I should have worked 0 hours. I haven’t had a day off I didn’t get from working extra hours since Florida in early July. That seems like YEARS ago. I was told today I was a work-a-holic. I don’t think that’s it. It’s my personality and ethic. I’ve probably been putting more effort into a few things than I should. I have a really bad habit of working really hard on things that are past help.
Speaking of things that are past help, I’ve been struggling with a few decisions I made to be the bigger person. I hate conflict and pain for anyone, including myself. I see now that my trying to avoid certain things has screwed me over once again. There is regret. I hate regret. I can’t change the past, but I would do it differently if I could do it over.
Another thing I need to work on is getting my running back post hip issues. I have a relay race in a little over a week and I am no where close to being ready. I did place in two races in June, but a lot has happened since then. My relay team is competitive. I wasn’t ready last year, because of obvious stress and life reasons last year (race was earlier in years past), but i still pulled out a fast time. The year before I had a “road kill” on a girl who was on my high school’s state track team, which was super exciting for me. I don’t want to be the slowest one but then again, 9 days is too late to really do anything beneficial other than just running.
Around the corner, I am planning to make a trip to see some of my friends I haven’t seen much in the last year. I have regret that I haven’t seen them enough. I do have a LOT of work trips in October, November, and June. I really plan on making the most out of those and maybe adding some extra fun days on to them. I am blessed to have such good friends. I need to find more time for them.