2013: Year in Review

I honestly don’t remember a whole lot from 2013, especially the first half.  To be honest, looking back, 2013 was just ok overall.  Majority of the year was stressful workwise, especially until September.

January

I don’t remember much except that I was supposed to run Disney and I couldn’t.  3 month running hiatus due to adrenal issues.

Hosted godson’s baby shower.  Sorority chapter at Texas State activated.  Poured myself into yoga.

I do remember legislative session was in full swing.  I was working A LOT.

February

More legislative session, not running, and tired.

Our secretary at work died 😦

8 year anniversary with Dan.

My godson was born!!!

Had surgery at the end of February.

Got a stand up desk (YAY!)

March

More legislative session.  Stress.  Recovering from surgery.  SXSW.

Couldn’t defend my Thin Mint Sprint title 😦  Volunteered instead.

I started run-walking at the end of March.  It SUCKED.  I couldn’t control my breathing.

April

More legislative session.  Stress.  No rain.  More work stress.

San Francisco for LUNA Summit with all but 1 of my teammates.  Great time!  Started run-walking more.

May

More legislative session.  Stress.  No rain.  More work stress.  Traveled a little for work.  Dan’s parents came for a visit.

June

Legislative session over!  Still no rain.

Changed doctors.

I became a Godmother.

Jalapeno Half in Fort Worth.  The only summer race I’ve ever done, may be my last!  Great weekend with mom and sister.

Turning point with work role.  New assignment.  Still no rain.

July

Working my old duties AND new duties at work.  Still no rain.  In fact, it got worse.

Work trip with visits with some of favorites.

Vacation booked to Hawaii.

Stopped doing yoga much at all.

Finally got some overdue appreciation during a big work event.

Had a big weight gain out of no where (big for a short amt of time and my frame).  I didn’t change my food or exercise.  Frustrated.

August

This was the turning point of the year.

Went to see Jason Boland and Pat Green in New Braunfels and had a wonderful time with a bunch of old friends.  It was very reminiscent of the old days.

I separated from Dan.  Hardest thing i’ve ever had to say/do.  He agreed it was right.

Hawaiian vacation cancelled.

September 

September was the longest month of my life.  Trying to get the last 8.5 years of my life sorted out.

I decided to live in our house until October.  After October 1, we would go our separate ways.   Except my way was me leaving my house.  My home.  Moved in with my sister.  He kept our house.

I only told my family and closest friends about the split.  That’s what he and I agreed to.

Spent a week in Houston to “find myself.”  Friends, family, sports, food.  To sum it up, it was a “game changer.”

Dove into my new work role 100% and made the decision to stop letting others dump on me.

October 

Started over.  No home.  No money.

Overwhelming support from my family, friends, and coworkers.

Traveled a lot.  2 work trips and a trip to San Francisco for the Nike Women’s half.  Great memories made.  Love SF.

Started getting back to many things I used to do pre-Dan.  Things I put aside because he didn’t like them or I no longer had time.

Once word started to get out that I was single, it spread like wildfire.  All of a sudden I had texts and messages from people who wanted to date me.  This was very foreign and unexpected.  Actually, uncomfortable.

November 

A little more work travel.

Not feeling great running.  No energy.  Not having an easy time lugging extra weight either.  Shiner Half was perfect weather for me, but the race for me was anything but.

I started missing my old house.  My stuff.  Being hostess for Thanksgiving.

Got my first Christmas job.  It was a great idea.  Not much money, but good people and warm hearts.

December

By far the best month of the year to me.  Despite missing my old house again.  My fireplace.  My Christmas tree.

I had another great month at work.  Got a raise.  Got lots of kudos.

I learned patience. Or the closest I will ever get to it.

I learned the true meaning of love.  Watching my godson open his Christmas gift.  Spending a weekend in yoga pants and an over-sized sweatshirt.  Carefully selected groceries.  Listening to others.

Cut back the running to almost nothing.

Waiting on salivary cortisol test to come in.  Fingers crossed my adrenals are fine.

~~I am almost 20 lbs heavier than I started the year.  I don’t have my own place.  Another whole year of frustrating visits to the doctors with no answers.

Even with those things hanging over my head, this year was ok.  I know 2014 is going to be a big year for me.  Big for my career, big for my health, and big for my relationships.   I will love more and work less.  This year I will NOT let vacation time roll!!!

I am going to make a new home for myself.  Spend more time with my godson.  Spend more time with family and friends.  Spend more time on me.

Carry On

“Everybody gotta get away sometime,
Forget about yourself for awhile…”

~ Pat Green

I was able to get away over the weekend.  My coworker at the holiday job asked to take my Saturday shift in turn for her Monday night.  OK!  When does that magically happen?

The stars were all aligned I guess.  No holiday work or plans for the weekend.   So some were made.  Was even able to knock off an hour early from my regular job.

I hurried as fast as I safely could to my destination.  Unfortunately Friday was not a good day for everyone.   Certain events had unfolded while I was at work, and I began to worry and panic about a loved one.  The same friend I was going to visit.

I got to my destination and spent the whole weekend in yoga pants and sweatshirts.  I can’t remember the last time I did that.  It was nice to have nothing planned for once.  To stay up late and sleep in.  To have someone cook for me.  To watch random stuff on tv.  Fireplaces.  To share smiles and tears.  To be there for someone when they were in need.

I forgot about myself all weekend and focused on someone else.  That’s a wonderful feeling.

Early holiday fun

Christmas came on Friday.  I apparently was a good girl.

This would be the cutest and tiniest poinsettia I have ever seen.  Someone thought I would love it.  They were right.IMG_0320[1]

Beautiful perfect yellow roses.  My sorority flower and yellow rose of Texas 🙂IMG_0321[1]Apparently my sister doesn’t own a vase and all of mine are in storage.  I had to dump her kitchen utensils out of this.  I think it’s a vase she was using as a crock.

A mophie for my iPhone!  My phone is always low on battery, because I use it too much.  Overnight and during work I charge it all day long, but other than that, it’s drained.   I like this because the case comes apart and with the bottom off, it now fits on my docking speakers.  🙂  Very thoughtful.

IMG_0322[1]More important than any gift was memories made and precious time shared.  Happy heart.

Fun Facts Friday

  • I am working retail for the first time in 9 years.  I like my holiday job.  People are a lot nicer than I remembered them being.  Who am I kidding?  It’s the quality of people I am sure.  Different city.  Different culture.  Different clientele.
  • I’ve surprisingly only bought myself a few small things with my nice discount.  I should probably look ahead to get something good for myself before the discount goes away in a few weeks.
  • My Christmas shopping this year was stress free and 0 physical effort.
  • I worked more days at my holiday job this week than I did at my real job.
  • I ran a 5 mile Christmas light run on Tuesday.  That was probably the 5th time i’ve run since Shiner.  I’m just not feeling it after that day.  It was a bad race mentally.
  • I have a new cortisol test pending.  Will see if anything has changed since last year.  Fingers crossed it has
  • I am only waking up once or not at all during the night now.  YES!
  • Transferred to another Dr. in the practice.  One that is supposed to be the best for hashi’s.  We will see where that goes
  • More labs this past week.  Fingers cross these help with making progress

happy friday!

Hurt

“If I could dry your tears, I would. If I could take the pain, I would. But all I have are eyes to cry with you, arms for you to run to and a promise that you’ll never bear the pain alone cause I’m here.”

It’s a helpless feeling to see someone you love hurting and being too far away to offer a hug.

Santa’s list

My holiday shopping in complete.  Finally sat down and ordered my dad a few things from Amazon and having them shipped home.  

I honestly have not bought any gifts that haven’t come from my holiday job, until today.  I also haven’t had the time to go anywhere but my holiday job when I wasn’t working.  

This week has been especially busy with working my holiday job and a big event with my regular job all week.  I’m EXHAUSTED.  But it was well worth it.  I LOVE seeing my coworkers from all over the state.  I wish it was more than twice a year.  This time seemed to fly by and I didn’t get to see anyone as long as I would have liked.

I just have 1 more gift to get.  I haven’t bought it yet, but it’s already picked out.  It’s the first Christmas gift to be given (Friday), and the last to be purchased 😉   

Full steam ahead into another busy week.  I work more days at my holiday job this week than my full time job!