I must say that my incredible support system has been the thing I like the most lately. Or LOVE. From personal life, to work, to my extracurriculars, I am surrounded by a great group of people.
Without my strong support system, I am not sure i’d be able to tackle half of what life throws at me. I am forever grateful for those people and I hope I never take any of them for granted.
It’s scary, uncomfortable, and emotional. I know I will be ok, but it’s going to take time to get there.
A new chapter in life starts now. No dwelling on the past, just full force ahead into what’s best for me.
So I use the word “Awesome” alot.
Well apparently I am not the only one. I have a running joke with a co-worker that “I am f’ing aaaaawesome.”
This week, coworkers I don’t even know have used it to describe me. I found this to be hysterically funny. I have at least 4-5 emails with references to my awesomeness. I see a trend.
And then Caveman cooking creations posted this:
And I laughed so hard I couldn’t control myself 🙂 Apparently I was born that way.
So the Dr. visit went ok yesterday. My pelvic ultrasounds were both 100% normal. My hashi’s anti-bodies were up.
I just about burst into tears when the nurse weighed me. Really? I’ve gained 7 lbs since my last visit 😦
Because of the weight issues, she thinks the progesterone is off. So she lowered that. And put me on low dose naltrexone. I looked it up and they use it to treat all kinds of things from AIDS, to cancer, to MS, to autoimmune issues. I take it at night and for the first week it’s supposed to wreck my sleep. It did last night! I am not tired today….yet.
She let me drop the iron, but I have a bunch of other supplements I still have to take.
So that’s it in a nut-shell. Fingers crossed this brings me one step closer to normal. 🙂
I have a Dr appointment tomorrow, which I am optimistic about. I am hoping that she will have some ideas and hear my concerns. I am 5 lbs over WW goal right now with no changes to food or activity 😦 That makes me up over 13 lbs from where i’ve been for YEARS. Something isn’t right at all. I’m embarrassed to say that I’m over. But I also know it’s nothing I did to cause it.
I don’t know what my tests mean really, hopefully she can share more on those. I do know my Hashi’s is still pretty bad and my hormones are all whacked out. I also had 2 ultrasounds recently that I’m sure we’ll go over.
I am still hanging on to hope and optimism, because I DO feel better overall. Not having any clothes that fits sucks, but I am hoping that changes soon.
I didn’t recap the trip, because I didn’t really have the greatest time overall. If you follow me on Facebook you will notice the photos dropped off in early evening. That’s when my enjoyment stopped. One of those things where I should have just bowed out and stayed at home.
FYI, it’s not recommended to walk over a mile in a severe storm. Alone. In a strange city.
I pretty much spent all weekend in the car to lose sleep both nights and run 6 humid miles along the river on Sunday morning. It was nice to have a change of scenery for a run. There were spurts of fun, but overall, probably wasn’t wise of me to go 😦
I’ve been taking more chances lately. Trying not the be afraid of failure. Trying to make positive changes for myself, even if they don’t all work out.
I took a HUGE step onto the field yesterday. Not sure if I will get a hit or not. Honestly I am ok with whatever happens. Everything happens for a reason!
Yup, heading to Little Rock for the weekend. Never been to Arkansas before. Dan, Trisha, and myself are going to the Lucero family picnic. I like their music but i’m not wild about being in the car for majority of the weekend. Driving halfway tonight, then the other half tomorrow. Then the event, come back on Sunday. Those two are big into Jameson, so I am guessing it’ll be an entertaining weekend watching them!
I am such a bad blogger. I’ve been so busy at work and with other things, I’ve not blogged about even the super exciting stuff. Not enough time for anything.
The river was a blast last weekend. Didn’t have time to blog it. Dessert Dash was a success. Didn’t have time to blog it. Had some great changes in my life. Didn’t have time to blog that either. Heck, I did laundry on Wednesday and Thursday of this week. Laundry is ALWAYS done on Sunday, Monday if worst case scenario. There is no end in sight with the hectic schedule. I am leaving for Hawaii in 3 weeks and I’ve done ZERO research or planning.
Got my bloodwork back from the lab earlier this week but I can’t get a Dr. appt until the 21st 😦 I’m all out of whack still. Had an ultrasound yesterday, hopefully that’ll be back from the radiologist soon too. Usually I don’t hear what those say. I’ve been feeling alright but my energy and muscle recovery has been crap again. Probably because my hashi’s is nuts again (the one lab result I understand). I’ve been VERY good about taking days of rest and cutting back. I haven’t cut running out, but it’s cut FAR back. I am looking at my 3 half calendar in the next 6 months and wishing i’d not jumped on them. I want to do them, but i’ve not bounced back to where I should be.
Even with the hectic schedule, craziness at work, and in life in general, I am blessed. There are part of my life where i’ve never been happier 🙂
getting what you need, exactly when you need it….
Work has been a little difficult lately. Nothing I can’t handle, but it’s been alot of hours, extra work, extra duties, and having to move on from working directly from some of my favorite people.
When it was announced I would be transitioning to new duties, I got a lot of response in calls and emails. Upset and/or angry people who were protesting my move. Granted, I did not choose this move, but it’s something they need me to take care of.
That felt great to know I was so loved and appreciated. But so bad to feel like I was leaving them and letting them down, although against my will. I will work with them from time to time, but it won’t be the same.
One particular co-worker shocked the hell out of me and told me I was the reason they had a new passion for their work. That they had contemplated leaving and chose to stay because of me. They don’t get to work with me often, but they said my dedication and commitment was so strong it made them re-evaluate their career.
How the hell do you react to that?
I didn’t. I smiled and it made me happy. Even if I was having a rough go, it was inspiring to others.
It’s a good feeling.