I am looking forward to 2013. This will be the year I get all of this medical stuff figured out. I am determined.
Overall I am feeling better, but I am still far from feeling like myself. I don’t really remember what normal was, but I know this isn’t it. I know you aren’t supposed to wake up tired, or wake up 5-6 times a night. You shouldn’t get tired from doing things like standing up to cook, or get muscle fatigue lasting for days from it. I won’t even go into some of the more personal things, trust me, they aren’t pleasant.
I also know now that opening things that look like bills on Christmas is a really really bad idea. I wound up in tears, because I opened a surprise medical bill which was quite large 😦 Especially frustrating, when the billed tests didn’t result in progress.
I had my last Dr. appointment the Wednesday before Christmas (next one isn’t until Feb or March). My levels are still all over the place. Thyroid is getting better, but still not ideal. I took a series of new tests this week, also not covered by insurance, because I really want to see the condition of my adrenals. It’s likely they are fatigued or damaged and may be the reason i’m not making the progress I should be. If the adrenals aren’t addressed, it hinders everything else.
I am not jumping ahead, but if the adrenals are not in good shape, that means drastic changes in my lifestyle. It won’t be easy, but I am willing to do anything to get back to my old self! I am hoping if it comes down to it, the determination and drive I have to be healthier will enable me to be strong. Hoping I get the results from the tests in the next week, so I can wrap my mind around whatever needs to be done.
So in the meantime, i’ve been trying to de-stress and relax more. More time reading, more time trying to not worry about work (my new position is pretty intense), trying to add more sleep (which is hard when you don’t stay asleep), and add more low key workouts in.
So here’s to 2013, the year I get it all figured out and get me back 🙂